Mano artimiausi žmonės žino, kaip gerai jaučiuosi atsikračiusi nebereikalingų daiktų, suplėšiusi pasenusius užrašus, išmetusi nebenešiojamus rūbus, ištrynusi nebeaktualius blog'o įrašus ir netgi pašalinusi nuotraukas, į kurias žiūrint viduje nebekyla jokios emocijos. Pastaruoju metu taip tvarkiausi itin aktyviai - kompiuteryje atsirado daugiau laisvos vietos, spintoje - kelios neužimtos lentynos, kambaryje nebeliko nei vienos dulkelės, galvoje - nemažai minčių nugulė į joms skirtus "stalčiukus", tačiau kartu su jomis kažkur giliai širdyje pabudo tos, kurių jau buvau pasigedusi. Tos, kurios mane įkvepia kažką keisti, judėti į priekį, pirkti gėles, kepti pyragus, puoštis, šypsotis ir mylėti.
Sakysite - turbūt tai pavasaris, - tačiau nei pati nežinau to neįprasto nerimo priežasties.
Kartais pagalvoju - galbūt tai nuovargis, kuris neretai tampa pačiu geriausiu žadintoju iš to gilaus ir nuobodaus žiemos miego? O gal tai dar vieneri, akimirksniu pralėkę mano gyvenimo metai, kurie šiandien ryškiai brėžia dar vieną liniją mano gyvenimo žemėlapyje delne? Nežinau. Kol kas viskas, ką galiu jausti tėra tai, jog jau labai noriu pabusti ir keltis. Pilnomis saujomis semti naujus gyvenimo lobynus.
Išmesti nebenešiojamus rūbus, nuvalyti dulkes, ištrinti nuotraukas, atsikratyti kvepalais, kurie primena skaudžias gyvenimo pamokas - visa tai tėra įrankiai, padedantys mums suprasti, jog laikas visuomet tinkamas atversti naują baltą lapą. Nesvarbu, ar šiandien Naujieji metai, nesvarbu, ar prasidėjo pavasaris, nesvarbu, ar šiandien tavo gimimo diena - visas, mums skirtas laikas yra dabar.
Netgi tos, 24 patirtos akimirkos. Jas turiu, prisimenu ir branginu dabar.
Ačiū, kad padedate jas kurti. Visada ♥
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My friends and family know how good I feel after throwing away all the things I don't need anymore. After deleting some old pictures that stopped being precious for me, after cleaning my room till I see that every single corner of it is shining.
I've been doing it quite often lately and the result is that now I have way more space in my wardrobe and computer, every little corner on my room is really shining and lots of thoughts in my head found their place they were supposed to be. But at the same time, my other feelings that I've been missing for a while, woke up.
I'm talking about the feelings that give you motivation to move forward, to buy flowers, to dress up, to bake cakes, to smile and to love.
You may say - it's just a spring that is coming, - but I'm not sure what this feeling is about. Maybe it's my tiredness that sometimes helps to wake up from this long and boring winter sleep. Or maybe it's just another year that today is crossing a bright line in my "life-map" on my palm. I actually don't know. I can only say one thing - I really want to wake up.
To throw away your old clothes and letters, to delete pictures, to hide a perfume that reminds you a hard lessons of life - these are only an instruments helping you understand that the time is always right to start something new. To start living in other way. It doesn't matter whether today is New Year, it doesn't matter whether today is the beginning of spring, or whether it's the day of your birthday - all the time we have is now.
Just like those 24 pictures of my life. Having, remembering and appreciating them now. Thank you all for helping me to create them. Always ♥
Sakysite - turbūt tai pavasaris, - tačiau nei pati nežinau to neįprasto nerimo priežasties.
Kartais pagalvoju - galbūt tai nuovargis, kuris neretai tampa pačiu geriausiu žadintoju iš to gilaus ir nuobodaus žiemos miego? O gal tai dar vieneri, akimirksniu pralėkę mano gyvenimo metai, kurie šiandien ryškiai brėžia dar vieną liniją mano gyvenimo žemėlapyje delne? Nežinau. Kol kas viskas, ką galiu jausti tėra tai, jog jau labai noriu pabusti ir keltis. Pilnomis saujomis semti naujus gyvenimo lobynus.
Išmesti nebenešiojamus rūbus, nuvalyti dulkes, ištrinti nuotraukas, atsikratyti kvepalais, kurie primena skaudžias gyvenimo pamokas - visa tai tėra įrankiai, padedantys mums suprasti, jog laikas visuomet tinkamas atversti naują baltą lapą. Nesvarbu, ar šiandien Naujieji metai, nesvarbu, ar prasidėjo pavasaris, nesvarbu, ar šiandien tavo gimimo diena - visas, mums skirtas laikas yra dabar.
Netgi tos, 24 patirtos akimirkos. Jas turiu, prisimenu ir branginu dabar.
Ačiū, kad padedate jas kurti. Visada ♥
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My friends and family know how good I feel after throwing away all the things I don't need anymore. After deleting some old pictures that stopped being precious for me, after cleaning my room till I see that every single corner of it is shining.
I've been doing it quite often lately and the result is that now I have way more space in my wardrobe and computer, every little corner on my room is really shining and lots of thoughts in my head found their place they were supposed to be. But at the same time, my other feelings that I've been missing for a while, woke up.
I'm talking about the feelings that give you motivation to move forward, to buy flowers, to dress up, to bake cakes, to smile and to love.
You may say - it's just a spring that is coming, - but I'm not sure what this feeling is about. Maybe it's my tiredness that sometimes helps to wake up from this long and boring winter sleep. Or maybe it's just another year that today is crossing a bright line in my "life-map" on my palm. I actually don't know. I can only say one thing - I really want to wake up.
To throw away your old clothes and letters, to delete pictures, to hide a perfume that reminds you a hard lessons of life - these are only an instruments helping you understand that the time is always right to start something new. To start living in other way. It doesn't matter whether today is New Year, it doesn't matter whether today is the beginning of spring, or whether it's the day of your birthday - all the time we have is now.
Just like those 24 pictures of my life. Having, remembering and appreciating them now. Thank you all for helping me to create them. Always ♥
